Just a brief exchange with Jill today. She's out of town at meetings till tomorrow night so she is busy and tired.
Some background when Jill and I first moved in together we had two kittens Rudy and Blanche. Well at first it was Ruby and Blanche until we realized Ruby was a boy. They were both offspring of Lickity who was one of four kittens born to Cloe a cat that had wondered into my store years earlier. Now Jill is defiantly a cat person, me I just love all animals as I turn into a five year old around anything furry. Jill and Rudy had a special bond, she would hold him for hours from the time he was a tiny kitten till he was the cutest furriest maine coon you ever saw. When he was two, maybe three, he became very ill and we had to put him to sleep. The loss devastated Jill (me too) and she was heartbroken. Rudy was her furry sponge of love she could hold every night once she got home. It also had a serious affect on Blache as her brother had always been there together. It was a few months before Jill could bear the thought of getting another cat but we finally went out to the humane society and found Oscar Joseph (OJ for his orange patches). Oscar then became a part of our family and Jills new love. When we separated Jill left Oscar and Blache with me, not because she wanted to but, I think more because she felt sorry for leaving me alone. Or maybe it was she didn't want to move then from the only home they had ever known as they had never left the apartment. I was hard for Jill to leave them behind (leaving me behind not so much). Luckily we had a resent new addition too the family Kyra a stray that had wondered up our stairwell a month before. Jill took Kyra to her new apartment were they both still live today.
Now I said all that to say this. I had been at our old apartment today. My sister was over seeing what she could use for her new house. As we were moving stuff around I found one of my cat Oscars little rubber balls. (He thinks he's a dog and will fetch them.) I had to find Oscar a new home when I realized I would lose the apartment so I haven't had him six months or more.
A day ago Jill had asked about Oscar and Blanche. It wasn't something I wanted to tell her yet as I had to tell her that Blache had passed away last month. I knew even after all this time that would upset her and make her cry. I can see clearly in my mind the tears on her face when she had to read that email. That is why when I found that ball today I had to take it with me. I also knew I had to tell Jill. I hoped it might make her smile remembering him insanely chasing those balls around. Amazing thing is before I could send an email my sister got a visit today from her old mother-in-law, who by random fate was the nice lady that answered my ad and is Oscars new owner. She dropped off a few pictures of Oscar in his new home. I, of course, scanned them immediately and sent them to Jill. I hope they made her smile. I'm pretty sure they did as I may not have always been able to make her happy but Oscar always could.
WARNING If you ended up here I must warn you this is a straight unedited feed from my heart. I meet a girl when is was 32. She was the first girl I dated. the first girl I kissed. and the only woman I ever really loved and I still do. We moved in together and got married and for the first and only time in my life I was happy. Then it all fell apart and we divorced. This is my only way of dealing with that so be warned its sad pathetic and depressing but it is 100% real.
About Me
- Tim Rosencrans
- To whom it may concern. This Blog starts nearly 4 years after my wife left when I finally let go of the anger and attempted to reconnect with her.
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